It holds me back.
It folds me back.
My fear often goads me back.
I wonder when, and linger long.
I ponder on what might go wrong.
All my dreams, it dares to throttle.
I tell myself, “I am mere mortal”.
I wish for strength, I wish for luck.
When action calls, I choose to duck.
I like to play the waiting game.
Then all else, I seek to blame.
My spirit’s curbed; deep lines of pain.
My reflection mocks; drives me insane.
Can’t let it override my senses to flight!
Can’t let it destroy me in such clear sight!
One day I will strive to banish this demon.
This vicious bandit that seeks to steal men;
Of dreams of glory, of joys unchained;
Of strength and valour, of skills unclaimed.
I will find my voice, I will find new skies.
To claim myself; one day I will rise.
Fear is one of the most frequent visitors in our subconscious. Even if we choose to deal with it squarely or ignore it completely it still hounds us. And for those who often fall prey to it, the vicious little creep tightens his reins around their faculties to the extent that they no longer have the will to shake it off.
Our inner fear is probably the greatest hurdle to any sort of forward movement in life. It is the annoying little pesky voice in your head that says, “Don’t even think about trying for that job, you aren’t qualified enough”, “Don’t make that call, they won’t entertain the likes of you”, “Don’t even bother with that silly idea, it won’t work”. No matter what you attempt to do, it gives you hundreds of reasons why you shouldn’t and highlights how miserably you would fail if you go ahead with it.
I have realized that the more I acknowledge its presence, the easier it is for me to shrug it off. I try replacing the negations with positive assertions. If it conjures up limitations, I strengthen my belief that I have been blessed with life and the ability to do wonderful things with it. I might as well have a good go at it than hang around the periphery like a spectator and wonder what it must feel like to be a big game player.
Fear will always be an integral part of our life. We do need it to a certain extent to propel us to work harder, to be more prepared and to sharpen our instincts. But it is important to avoid falling in a perpetual trap of doubts and imagined failures.
How do you handle your inner fear?